It is an everyday struggle for me to stay balanced w/ God, house, kids, family, dinner, shopping, appointments, family and friends! I get so aggravated and overwhelmed sometimes! I just want our house to stay clean and laundry caught up! Seems like I try to keep up on it everyday until I'm just worn down or have a busy day with appointments and errands come home and it's trashed! Really, how can a house get trashed so quickly and easily! I'm just venting! I'm only one person and I need your help, Lord! I'm trying to be the woman you want me to be and be the good mother, wife, friend, daughter, church member....on and on! It just seems like I'm not doing anything right! I'm so tired all the time. I know I need to get my sleeping schedule adjusted. I would like to get to bed around 10 and get up at 5 w/ my Hubby, get him off to work and then spend time w/ the Lord, but I just can't stay awake! I don't see how working mothers do it, seriously! I remember when I worked and how tired I was. I only had to come home and cook for 2! I didn't have to cook, clean up, baths and play with kids...let alone anything else.
I guess, it's just something us mothers have to adapt to and learn how to manage it all. Yea, I have been doing it all along, but I just want to be better!
Ok...the girls are now 2 and the boys are 1. So, I 'm sure you can imagine how playing goes! They really do get along together, but there are times when the boys get whacked up side the head w/ a toy! Not to mention the boys are still quite clumsy and fall and hit their head on something. I'm sorry, but I am just one person and I can't pad my whole house and walk behind them and stop them from every fall. Anyways...I took the boys for the 1 year well baby visit yesterday and Wyatt has 3 little bruises, evolving from the above mentioning...and he makes me feel like I'm not good enough! :( This is like the 2-3rd time the boys have been in there with a bruise on their forehead and one time he asked one of the boys did your Mommy do this to you!?! And, I thought oh my goodness! I even explained what happened, but it just seemed like he didn't care what I had to say. So...yesterday, again another bruise and he goes another bruise or something and I said yep, he's got rough siblings or something ( I don't remember exactly what I said), but he was like, "Oh well, just blame it on the sisters)! ;( Does he really not believe me and thing I beat my kids!!!? Oh Lord! Trust me, if I was going to beat my kids...I'm pretty sure I wouldn't let them leave the house! Just makes me feel bad! Oh well, me, Hubby and the Lord knows we don't beat our kids! That is one thing for sure I don't and won't tolerate! It makes me sick to hear it and know that it goes on in our neighborhoods!
Anyways...help me balance my time, Lord. Help me to stay caught up on the housework, laundry, bill paying, shopping, errands, doctor appointments, church, church activities, play time and family and friend time! I want to be a good steward of my time, energy and money! I just need more energy!~~
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