me

I think somewhere along this line called life, I lost myself. I know through past experiences I know I tried to make myself fit in or catered myself to be like others or even what others wanted me to be like. Well, lately I have been figuring out who I am, what I like, what I want, what I do, what I don’t do…kinda funny you have to figure out who you are, when you’ve lived in this body for 28 years. I’m realizing that I have a choice. I’m making a decision to like me. Christ loved ME so much, he died for me. Christ loves me, Christ is in me, I have to love myself! I can’t love others the way Christ needs me to love others, if I don’t love myself first. And, you can’t love others the right way or to the fullest intent if you don’t have the love of Christ in your heart and if you don’t love Christ yourself. Well, I do love JESUS! I am head over heels for him! I love Him more than anything in this whole world! He’s my number 1! He is my number 1 priority! At least I’m trying to have this mindset! I am by no means perfect! I am Apostolic Pentecostal. I need Jesus! I believe I do have the truth and it has made me free! I am the person today that God needs me to be. Everything I have went through was for a reason and a purpose. I am ashamed of past choices I have made and am still healing and learning to forgive myself for things I’ve done. The Devil will always come in and make you feel guilty and not good enough! BUT, I have repented-the best way I know how. I’m sure there is still secret impurities deep inside my heart that only the Lord can reveal and deliver me from. I know God is not finished w/ me yet! I know the good work He has started in me (and you); he will finish! I’m not where I need to be, but I’m better than I was! I’m so glad and thankful for all the Lord has done in my life! I have come a LONG way! I will always keep striving to be better, do better and seek his righteousness and holiness! What I have learned about me thus far: I’m not a city girl! I’m a country girl! I tried that once! I realized the other day that I love the smell of the country! I love the smell of pigs and cows! hahah, funny I know! Now, I do not like to bait my own hook or pull the fish off, but I’ll go! ;) I’m more of a comfy girl rather than a prissy girl. Ya know, maybe I’m learning who I am now . My desires have changed! The Lord has changed me! PTL I want to be a soul winner and help lead the lost to Him! I’m learning to build my treasures in Heaven and not here on Earth! Tumblr is locking up on me, so I’ll have to finish later! Good day!