The last several weeks I have really just been in a dry place. These dry seasons are often needed for Jesus to have his way. There are lessons learned in each season, but you truly appreciate life and blessings when you look back when coming out from a dry season! In the dry season you often feel alone, aggravated, emotional and that you can't hear or feel His presence. I know it didn't help that the weather had us cancel church several services and then we were sick and missed a couple services too. So, from missing church and on top of this dry season I was about to lose it!! As I shared in a previous post and being so hungry-FEED ME! That is how I felt!I have a longing for the Lord! I was just so hungry for His presence and His Word and I just couldn't feel or get it or get close enough: it became truly frustrating! During this time too...we dry out and lose those leaves/branches of bitterness, anger...all that unfruitful stuff that has to die out and fall off, so we can bear good fruit!! (At least I hope that's what happened to me! Because am I perfect!!? NO! Do I bear perfect fruit!!? Should I!? YES! I still need Jesus!!!)
You see when I got the holy ghost it was an outta body experience for me!!! The Lord really showed me and let me feel His power, glory and love! I have used a lot of different drugs and many at the same time and I have experienced earthly fun and pleasure (which I of course regret now, but it is what it is and I'm learning to overcome, forgive and let go of). But when I got a hold of Jesus and He got a hold of me! There was no turning back! (At least for a while :/) I was so on fire!!! I read the Word, applied it to my life, memorized and confessed it, fasted and prayed w/ all I had! I jumped in head first! Anyways...back to getting the holy ghost! I was at a revival service w/ my sweet mother! It was an awesome service to begin w/! We headed back to our seats and they were calling and asking for those who wanted the holy ghost. I knew it was something good, but hadn't really thought of it for me at that point. My Mom looked over at me and said, "do you want to go get the holy ghost?" At first it made me mad! Why!!? Who knows!? PRIDE! I immediately knew I did something wrong!! I got hot, shaky and I couldn't sit still. My heart really began to beat hard inside of me and I knew I needed to be up there! My mother had prepared me prior and I knew what to expect, so that was out of the way. Anyways, I got up there and told the preacher I wanted the holy ghost. They told me to start praising and worshiping and just let it come out how ever it comes! It didn't take but a few seconds/minutes...who knows...I just can't almost put into words how it felt! He just took over me!! Every part of me! In that moment of true surrender, I let Him in and have His way!!! It was so good and awesome!! It was truly better than any drug, high, drink, drunk, pill or sex! It has been a marker in my life I look back on and it was so good that it left me wanting more!!! I want to feel His presence in that way again and again!! I do not feel this every time I go up and pray or worship, but there have been several times when I have just been totally lost and captivated and plum drunk in His presence!! It truly has quenched every desire of any addiction I had for drugs, alcohol, cigarettes and eventually sexual immorality! I know that is a hard one to throw out there, but it's true! I've been addicted to it from a very early age. I'm not telling you all this so you have something on me. I'm just trying to show you just what the Lord has delivered me from and from where I came from! People really do and can change, but you can't do it alone!! We can do nothing w/ out Jesus!! We can't! We didn't die for ourselves or for the world! But, when the precious Holy Ghost enters into you and when you start speaking in tongues w/ evidence in speaking in other tongues you now possess that same spirit that raised Christ from the dead! You now have the power and authority to lay hands on the sick and they shall be healed and recover in Jesus name. You have the power and authority to lay hands on the dead and they shall come back to life in Jesus name! You now have the power and authority to lay hands on the tormented and evil spirits/demons flee in the name of Jesus!!!
I feel a shift! I feel the Lord stirring me! I feel a fresh anointing! I feel that fire again!! I feel that joy coming back up! Now to start hearing the Lord speak to me and show me things again! :) I'm excited to see what the Lord is up to because revival is next week and you better believe I'm gonna get what I need!!! No Devil in Hell is gonna stop me!!!
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