Life has been pretty hectic for us lately! We did have a good Christmas. We did have Influenza A and I had Bronchitis through our Christmas break. Praise the Lord anyways! We did have a wonderful Christmas. I didn't get to go to my Mom's for Christmas due to us being sick, so I missed my sister and her kids. Our kids received so many Christmas blessings this year. I was in just awe! First, the girls got to go "shop w/ a cop" through Head Start. They did pretty good there. Then, all 4 of our kiddos got sponsored from "Angel Tree" which was Kimball. I am not kidding you, there was 4 large trash bags of Christmas for them!!! My jaw dropped!! Our kiddos are definitely blessed!! Thank You, Jesus!! Of course, we got them all Christmas, Mamaw & Papaw and Momma Jill! Our house looks like a toy zoo, even NOW! We had Christmas programs. We went singing w/ our church to the nursing homes. We went to Santa Claus Land to see the Festival of Lights and through the Land of Lights w/ Mamaw & Papaw.
Here this picture is taken at Santa's Lodge where we ate dinner....to say that this place was packed is an understatement! It was so loud and crowded; it was way too much for us! The kids did get to see Santa and Maddy hid under the table!! I can't remember what all we did for Christmas; it was a ton!!!
Haha, getting a great picture w/ these kiddos!
Now that all of that is over with; I think I am still sighing. The weather got crazy a couple of times here and there w/ ice and snow and then negative temps! The last few weeks was chaotic! Shwwoo!! It's over!
Now it's tax time, my 30th birthday, which I am unable to talk about at this time and Valentine's Day, Spring Break...did I just say, "SPRING"!!! Yes, it's coming!!! Yipee!! I think my heart just fluttered saying it!
Well, this week I have been praying and fasting HARD about a few things! Anyone who fasts much knows your emotions goes on a roller coaster when you get off a fast. I'm going through a few things too, but aren't we all? I just got word today about something that did not go our way, that could've really benefited our family. I am bummed. I know I shouldn't be and I'm trying hard to pass it, but MAN! Also, it doesn't help that I found a van that I really, O so desperately wanted, prayed and begged for- is sold too! I guess, I'm just in a O poor pitty me mood right now! Wahh!! Get over it, Vanessa! Life goes on! Blah!
~~~I'm too blessed to be stressed!!!!~~~~
Pick yourself back up and dust yourself off and keep on trucking!! It's not working yet!!! Ahh, I rebuke you, Devil, in JESUS name!!!
I wrote all of that to say that we all have bad days. We all go through trials and tests. Sometimes the Lord just has to purge junk out of us! I can sure tell too! I've had such a bad attitude last night and I'm still bothered by it today. I have all 4 kids home all day today and no sign of a nap, so it's kinda hard to go get some good praying and reading in, which I am going to anyways. I have learned that anything you do is better than anything. Somewhere along the line I have trained myself that it's not good enough for me to just get some praying and reading in while my kids are in the room w/ me. But, I look back on it and I realized that I'm still doing it, it just may not be how I want to do it, but it's better than not doing it at all. It's not that I don't want my kids to see me read and pray. I just want my time w/ the Lord alone and quiet, but sometimes that's just not possible, so ya gotta do what ya gotta do. We don't have to be perfect Christians and read and pray for 2-3 hours everyday, like for some reason I have in my head. I like when I can do that, but when I can't I just have to accept what I can give. I think I beat myself up more than the Lord or the Devil does!! I am my worst enemy!! Get me out of my way, Lord!!
I have many hopes & dreams. Even when everything is stripped away, including myself, I will still always hope and dream. The Lord will change my hopes and dreams and make them into His and to fit His plan for my life and that's all that I want! I realized sometime ago when I thought I just wanted to chuck it all out the window that I can't not pray! I know that sounds weird! But, I can't NOT pray!!! I'm always praying!! I just hope it's all working!! Sometimes I just feel blocked!! I so desperately just want to feel the unction of the Holy Ghost and hear God's voice! I know very people have really heard that audible voice, but I want to!!
Just in writing this blog to share w/ you I encouraging myself. I've given myself my own answer! Seek God more, and the world less!! Focus on JESUS!! When I feel overwhelmed, discouraged, dismayed and bummed out...I"m focusing on the world too much!!! Focus on Jesus more!! Pray and read more!
I keep waiting, trusting and praising the Lord for the many breakthrough's I need in my life. And, I will hear people keep telling me to, "pray about it" over and over. Sometimes it gets old hearing it, but sometimes that's all people know to tell you and it is the best thing to do. Praise & Prayer!! P>U>S>H!
#nevergiveup #mybreakthroughiscoming #mymiracleisonitsway
He told me that when I get through the fire, that things would be better than I could ever imagine (March 2012)!! Anyone that knows me knows I have BIG dreams! Ephesians 3:20 Now unto him that is able to do exceeding abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that worketh in us!
I will keep on pressing on!!!
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